Sad

Shortly after 6:00 tonight I received a phone call that my granny had died at her home. She apparently was not feeling well and told my aunt that she didn't know what was wrong. The assumption is that she had heart arrhythmia and stopped breathing. If you recall, I posted about her last week that she had a heart attack. She hasn't even been out of the hospital for a week. I am extremely sad and this is, by far, the hardest loss I have ever had. I lived with Granny and Papa until I was 14 years old. She was always there for me. She protected me as much as she could from the painful childhood that I had. I spent many nights sleeping on the couch in her bedroom when I was little. Most of my childhood is filled with countless memories of Granny. I know that she is in heaven. I know this well because she and I have had so many conversations about it and she read her Bible every night before bed and knew who created her and knew that she would one day see Him. I loved this woman more than I can say. My heart is sad. I fear that Rachel will not remember her even though she absolutely adored her Ginny. My unborn baby will never have the privilege of meeting the one person who probably had the most influence on my life. Granny did see my latest sonogram picture and talked about how cute she is. She started crocheting an afghan for this baby as she has done all of the other babies and I will cherish what she was able to finish. Although my heart is heavy I can still find

reason to rejoice......