Thursday, May 11, 2017

The True Bread

Two days in a row!!!  Crazy, huh?!  :)

I have started reading a book that one of my closest friends recommended:  Messy Beautiful Friendship.  I am on page 38 and I think it is one of the best books I have ever read.  This lady knows me.  I want to quote something she said in her book and show you how beautifully it tied in with my Bible study for today.

"When I am disappointed with my friendships and I take time to dig a little deeper in my heart, I inevitably find that I'm looking for my friends to relate to me as only God can.  I want God to give me good friends and when he has, I've been prone to shove him aside for the attention, wisdom, and companionship of those friends, despite knowing that they were intended as gifts rather than replacements.  People are not fillers for a present God, and God is not a placeholder for future friends." (Messy Beautiful Friendship, Christine Hoover, pg. 38)

She goes on to describe how God has the ability to love us differently that people do because He knows us much more intimately and He can handle the weight, complexity, and emotion of all that we are.  I love that.  So many times I feel as though I am too much for my friends to handle, and it is likely true.  But, I am not too much for God.  What a sweet thought.  What an encouraging thought.

Those were the words that I read as I fell asleep last night.  Then this morning, I woke up and did my Bible study.  I love how God orchestrates things we need to read/hear/ponder together so nicely.  He is gracious to us like that.  Today, my study was on John 6:22-42.  We are talking about the I AM statements that Jesus spoke.  When I got to verse 27, it stopped me in my tracks.  

"Do not labor for the food which perishes, but for the food which endures to everlasting life, which the Son of Man will give you, because God the Father has set His seal on Him." John 6:27 NKJV

I have been struggling in the area of friendship for about 3 years now.  I have really been trying to figure out how to be a friend, how to keep friends, what it means to be a friend, etc....but what God is saying right here is to stop worrying and working so hard for the things that won't last.  Yes, friendships are important but I FIRMLY believe that God will bring the right people into our lives to be our friends.  I don't understand why I work so hard trying to prove myself to others....always worried about whether or not something is going to make someone not be my friend anymore.  I read this verse and God whispered to me, "Seek me....the One that provides everlasting life.  I will provide for you.....even friends....friends that you can trust....friends that won't leave you.  Stop worrying about those that won't last, because they weren't meant to."  

In John 6:33, it says "The true bread of God is the one who comes down from heaven and gives life to the world."  Jesus.  He is the true bread.  If we come to Him, we will never hunger.  Jesus is not only the Provider, He is the Bread of life who never runs out and gives us exceedingly, abundantly more than we can imagine (Finding I Am, Lysa Terkeurst, pg. 35).

He says it.  And if He says it, it has to be true.  I can turn to Jesus for all of my needs.  He is my provider.  He is my source of life and the ONLY One that will give me true satisfaction.  All I have to do is believe that.  Believe that it is true with everything in my heart, mind, and soul - like my existence depends on it.

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Pushing Through the Pain

Have you ever started working out and you have those aches and pains and wonder if it is really worth it all?  Your trainer keeps telling you to push through and the results will show up and you will be pleased in time?  The burn and the pain that you are going through you somehow know will be worth it, so you just keep at it.

That is kind of how life feels sometimes.  Right now my life is sort of in this painful, dull ache of a time.  I can't really pinpoint the actual culprit but I know that God is doing something.  He is telling me that, in the end, it will be worth it.  Each time my heart feels that stab, I just keep telling myself that there is some purpose in it.  When my happy gets bumped and my feelings are on the bluer side, I simply let out a sigh and know that it will all be worth it.  I have to confess that this type of thing is hard for this girl.  I am an over-thinker and highly sensitive.  I can't say that each time I am disappointed that I just brush it off.  That is actually the opposite of what happens...especially inside, but I am definitely doing better than I used to.  I am trying really hard to focus on what God is doing in my life.  

God called me home at this time....away from the hustle and bustle of work life.  I am alone most of the time, which I do not enjoy.  I would much rather be with my husband or my closest friends laughing and talking about whatever, but unfortunately someone has to work!  :)  In the quiet, God is teaching me many things.  He is teaching me about myself, about my relationships, and most importantly, about Himself.  

Right now, more so than not, deep inside, life is painful.  I don't know where the source of it is, but I know that God is asking me to push through that pain to find the greater good.  Please don't misunderstand me.  I am blessed beyond measure and God is so so good to me, but there is something that God is trying to teach me, and because of that, my soul aches.  There is a longing in my heart to free myself from whatever it is that is making me feel so hurt and I believe that only God can do that.  I am so looking forward to the other side of this.  Will you pray with and for me?

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