Thursday, May 29, 2008

Update

I had my procedures yesterday. I went to sleep, they did it, I woke up and went home. It really wasn't that big of a deal. I just wasn't prepared for the whole "you can't drive or lift more than 5 lbs for 24 hours!!!" WHAT??!! I have a 34 lb kid! Thankfully I have wonderful friends and Heather stayed at the house all day helping me with Rachel and doing my house work. I don't know that she reads this, but THANK YOU A WHOLE WHOLE BUNCH!!!! The doctor found a large polyp in my colon, removed it, and sent it for tests. He didn't seem concerned that it was cancerous but was sure that if I had waited until 50 (normal time to get routine colonoscopy) then it would have for sure turned into cancer. He also took biopsies of my duodenum, my small intestine and some others. I also have errosion at the base of my esophagus. EWW! Anyway, I will see him again next week for follow up.

Today, Rachel and I had girl day! =) We went and got her hair cut. It was a cute little place where they do kids cuts. She was a good girl!

BEFORE


DURING




AFTER


What do you mean you can't tell a difference??? It's okay, I couldn't either but it was cute! Then we went to eat at Applebee's. Mommy can have a Weight Watchers meal there and Rachel got grilled cheese and applesauce! Then we went to Mardel and then home for a much needed nap (for Rachel...Mommy didn't get one today). I love spending time with her....especially when she is in a good mood and today was a great day for her. She's just growing up way too fast!!!

So, tonight Krista and I went to the gym like we do about 3 times a week but tonight she talked me into going to a belly dancing class....yes, you read that correctly...BELLY DANCING!!! It's okay, laugh as you get the mental picture in your head! It was humorous! It was quite hard, actually. I enjoyed myself...something different, that's for sure. Now she is wanting to try salsa dancing on Tuesday night because she can't go to belly dancing next Thursday because she is getting her wisdom teeth cut out. Lame excuse, I know!belly dancer

We are leaving for Little Rock tomorrow!! Can't wait to have fun!!!!

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Well...

I am tired and I don't have time to post much but I just have to say I AM STARVING!! I have been on this liquid diet for 2 days now in preparation for my EGD/colonoscopy tomorrow morning and I am about to die! I told my friend who is driving me that after it is over, we are going to get something to eat!!!!

All else is good. I worked quite a bit last week...I really like working at AMH! Rachel is good. She loves to talk...must get that from her daddy...HA HA HA!!! =)

That's about it..maybe later I will have more interesting things to talk about......until then......

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Real

Okay, so after writing a completely "daily" blog entry and then "blog surfing" somewhat I felt compelled to write something a little deeper. To be real.

The truth is that in my daily routines and the busyness of life, I have had something terribly heavy on my heart lately. It is probably because I am currently doing a Bible study with a fantastic group of ladies. We meet every other Monday night and it is very therapeutic. We are doing the study "Captivating" by John and Stasi Eldredge. Those of you that have read "Wild at Heart" know John Eldredge...well this study is sort of like a female version of that and is co-written by John's wife, Stasi. ANYWAY, it is a good study for the most part but this past week's meeting was incredibly emotional for me. You see, I am a very sensitive and emotional person and I have a tendency to hide behind a pretty tough exterior most times. I am blunt, sarcastic, and some would even call me abrasive....which, by the way, hurts my feelings! Honestly, those things are coping mechanisms for what I am really feeling.

I had a rough childhood. It was not pleasant....as a matter of fact, I think that awful would pretty much describe it. This past week I was asked to relive, in a sense, this childhood. I would like to think that I have "gotten past" all of what happened to me when I was little and perhaps I have but after not talking about it for so long, I found it difficult to share this part of my life with this group of ladies. As I began to share, I started shaking, my voice was quivering and I started sweating.....very strange reactions for someone to enjoys talking. I felt like it was good for me to share...some of those in this group had no idea that this was something that I had lived with/through. It wasn't shared for those who heard to feel sorry for me or to pity me in anyway but maybe to understand me a little more.

I don't feel like now is a good time to share details of things that happened to me but let's just say that my life was a lot like one of those Lifetime movies that leaves you speechless. There were drugs, physical and sexual abuse, abandonment...you name it....

As I really began thinking about all of those things I can only think of how big my God is and how although I did not have a personal relationship with Him at the time, He was protecting me. He didn't shield me from the abuse and He didn't protect my innocence, but He WAS there and He was looking out for me. God has this amazing plan for my life and as I look back on a childhood from hell, I find myself thanking Him. Why thanking Him you might ask??? Well....

For allowing me to be healthy. For allowing me to understand that what was happening was not my fault...I NEVER felt like it was...never. Thanking Him because had I not gone through those things I don't know if I would truly know how merciful God really is. I would not be the social worker that I am today. I would not have the compassion and understanding of those in abusive relationships. I might not be incredibly thankful for a husband who loves me for me and unconditionally. I might not understand how uncommon it is to have a husband with a good up bringing and good Christian family or to know what a blessing that is. I wouldn't know what it is like to go to school wearing dirty clothes. I might not understand the effects that illegal drugs have on someone's body and their mind and ultimately their families. One of the things that I am most thankful for regarding my childhood is that I will always strive to give my child a better childhood than I had and I will most definitely be a better mom because of what my childhood was. Most importantly, I can stand up and say without any reservation that I serve a God that loves me regardless of what I do, that protects His children even when His children haven't called on Him yet, and God has a magnificent plan for my life....for YOUR LIFE!

I think the most incredible thing to me is that I got through all of that as a child without knowing God as my personal savior. I can't imagine how that was possible except to say that God's hand was at work in my life. He was molding me and shaping me into the person that I would ultimately become. I have insecurities and I have flaws because is not finished with me yet....He is still molding and shaping me and regardless of how painful it is, I am thankful. I do not know how people can go through everyday life, much less tragedies without a God they can call on....I simply do not understand that. It breaks my heart to know that people go through things alone....they don't have to be alone....God wants to cry with them and ultimately bring healing that no other medicine or being can bring......until you feel that, it is hard to know what it is like!

Have you thanked God today for every aspect of your life? Join me......

Busy!

First of all, a friend of mine put this on her myspace page and I thought it was super cute!!!

stole my heart

This has been a busy week! We had an emergency play date with Josiah and Chelsea on Tuesday. That was tons of fun...so fun that we have decided to do it at least every other week. Two of us will keep the 3 kids...it actually worked out really well. That way the mommies can get some time alone and the kids can play together. I worked Wednesday and Thursday. Friday was a holiday for Brice....such a special surprise because I had forgotten that he gets the Friday and Monday of Monday holidays off. We just spent time together...all 3 of us. It was nice. Then I went to get my Mother's Day gift in the afternoon...ended up lasting for like 3 hours. I got a pedicure and manicure but the manicure looked AWFUL...so, I went back today after work and got it redone....it took FOREVER again!!! Ugh! The good thing is that my nails look the best they ever have...it was worth the wait but geez!

Work today was uneventful...THANKFULLY! The past two weekends have been crazy. A coworker told me today that I am insane for volunteering to work on Memorial Day...she is probably right. We will see. I will be on a liquid diet on Monday and clear liquid diet on Tuesday in preparation for my EGD and colonoscopy on Wednesday. Krista and I have started on a personal fitness program at the gym where I am committed to workout 30 minutes 3 times a week....this week has been difficult and next week will be even more difficult. BUT I CAN DO IT! Weight loss is still going well.


Rachel's pediatrician had her baby girl yesterday. I peeked my head into her room today and the baby is absolutely beautiful! Of course, Rachel's doctor is beautiful, so there ya go! Anyway, I didn't ask her name...completely forgot.


ITS A BABY GIRL



We will fly to Little Rock on Friday for Brice's parent's 40th wedding anniversary. I am looking forward to seeing everyone and celebrating such a special event with them. Just pray for Rachel to be cooperative during travel...we haven't flown since she was about 9 months old.

Welp, boring again, I know but that's what's going on with us. OH...I watched the season finale of Grey's Anatomy last night at the nail salon. I heard that this is the last season...anyone else heard that??? BUT, ironically, that is the ONLY episode that I have ever watched. I want to watch from the beginning so I am looking for anyone who has the first seasons on DVD. I can just rent it but would like to borrow if anyone close has it?????

greys anatomy

Oh, one more thing...Rachel played in the sprinkler today for the first time. You can tell how chunky someone really is when they are in a swimsuit...the main reason why I don't like to wear mine!! ha!! She had fun!



Tuesday, May 20, 2008

DEAD....

That would be the status of my car......the stupid battery died. I got in my car to go to Bible study last night and it would not turn over the least bit and a big red picture of a battery showed up in the dashboard. I drove Brice's car and he checked it out while I was gone. He said it was corroded pretty bad. I thought I did something wrong to cause the battery to die and Brice just looked at me and said, "Rikki, they don't last forever!" So, maybe this is a sign to me that I need to stay home today and take care of home things. I have to work tomorrow, Thursday and Saturday so I guess when Brice gets home he can give me a jump and I will go to Auto Zone or something. Hmm.....

Monday, May 19, 2008

Well....

All of the curbside trash has been successfully removed!!!! I will put out a whole bunch of cardboard for recycling on Thursday (I know this will make some of you avid recyclers happy) and my garage will look almost as good as new!!

Lost 1.2 lbs this week!!!! YAY!!! Again, not HUGE but healthy! It's coming off people and I could not be happier!!!!

I went to a new GI doctor today. He is absolutely GORGEOUS!!! He is young and quite attractive. I have never seen a GI doctor that I thought was attractive before and the subject matter of their practice is definitely not attractive. I will have a colonoscopy and upper endoscopy at the same time next Wednesday. He said he wants to do a "once over" on me to rule out anything and just have on-going routine visits after that. So, wish I didn't have to have a colonoscopy but, you know....gotta do what you gotta do to stay healthy. He said the likelihood is that I just have IBS. Hmm....pleasant.....

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Accomplished!!

If I could tell you my mood, the title of this blog would be it! My family and I decided to stay home from church tonight and spend some quality time together. After a nap, I cleaned the kitchen and made Daddy and Rachel dinner while they played and pretended to clean up the living room. We are always at church and the thing is that we just did not want to go tonight and really didn't feel guilty about it...I think that's okay. Anyway, as I was getting ready to take out the trash (Mondays are one of our trash pickup days) I noticed a pile of boxes that needed to go to the garage. My husband is so good about doing the trash duty on Mondays and Thursdays but I decided that I would do it this time. I was about to take the boxes to the garage and for whatever reason got a wild hair and started cleaning up the garage. For those of you that have been to my house, you know what a chore that I have taken on. Our garage was boxes piled on top of trash piled on top of boxes...not yucky trash, just packing materials and things of the such. We had a path to get from the door to the driveway and that was getting to small.....SO.....I DID IT!!!! I CLEANED THE ENTIRE THING!!!! It looks SO MUCH BETTER!!! I had a HUGE pile of packing peanuts and our trash pile by the curb is HILARIOUS!!! I took a picture of the packing peanuts but didn't have my memory card in the camera and cannot find the USB connector for it....and we already cleaned it up (Brice helped me with this part). BUT, here is a picture of our trash pile!

Hopefully the trash guys will pick it all up!!! We have had a good weekend. Everyone have a good week!!!

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Just In Case....

I come here and start complaining on Monday after I weigh, I would like you all to remind me of a choice I made today. I was on my way home from work tonight and I called Brice to ask him what he was cooking for dinner. We determined that there wasn't anything thawed so he told me to stop by the store and get something to cook. I wanted steak! It has been a long time since I had a good steak so I wanted steak....and I got steak!!! Brice cooked it and it was delicious...but bad! I also had a baked potato with some stuff on it that I shouldnt have had. It has been such a good week for me so far with staying on track and I may have very well blown it with this decision. I can't beat myself up over it, but I just have to be prepared when I get on the scales come Monday!! *biting my nails* I will be good tomorrow!

I worked today...as I previously mentioned and all I have to say about that is.....HOLY COW! It was one of the busiest days ever! It wasnt even ER stuff, it was momma and baby stuff....I had 3 adoptions and a nursing supervisor who is dumber than dirt! O'well.....gotta love hospital social work!

Thursday, May 15, 2008

SO PROUD!!

Mommy

Well, I know that I am probably like majority of the mommies out there but I am so stinkin proud of my baby girl!!! She can count to 6!!!!! Okay, so not EXACTLY like 1,2, so on and so forth, but she can say, "Wah, twoooooo..." she forgot about three which is funny because it is the first one she ever learned...o'well. So, I say "three" and then she says, "por, pibe, sick." AHHH!!! I love it!!! I LOVE HER!! It is so cute....she does it over and over again so I know it isn't just a fluke! She's smart...must take after her daddy!

Eighteen Months Old!

Rachel had her 18 month checkup today! The doctor said she is perfect!!! Well, perfect does not describe her recently developed attitude, that's for sure! Anyway, she is 34 lbs and 33 1/2 inches long. She is still in the 100th percentile for weight and 95th for length! Dr. Gibson-Hull will have her baby next week....we don't have to go back to the doctor until November....Rachel will be 2! Ahh!!!

Still doing well on my weight loss...this has been a good week. The doctor told me to start taking Align which is a probiotic and it has really helped me to feel better in general. It really is a good thing..but it is a little expensive.

That's about it! Brice's dad had eye surgery this morning....he had a detached retina....yikes! We hope to hear something about it soon!

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

New Pictures!

Well, some people might think that we get Rachel's pictures taken too often but it is only every 3 months. We will get them taken again at 2 years and then maybe just once or twice a year. I just love getting her picture taken...she's not as excited about it as I am! =) Here are a few from today's session. You can see the rest of them at www.dropshots.com/bricerikkirachel!

Monday, May 12, 2008

Monday

You have to, have to, HAVE TO watch the video on my blog before this one! HILARIOUS!!! I have watched it like 4 times! HA!

Well, as you might recall, Mondays are my weigh-in days. I lost 1.6 lbs this week!!! And, honestly I am pleased! I had Spring Creek BBQ and some REAL Bluebell ice cream yesterday...but I didn't eat dinner. I have lost 6 lbs in 3 weeks!!!! YAY I was really ready to give up again after last week and the anticipation that this week would be slow again...BUT, I will press on!

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Happy Mother's Day!

This is absolutely hilarious!!!!

Happy Mother's Day!

Friday, May 9, 2008

I Wish My Life Was More Interesting!

Nothing really exciting to blog about, really. I worked today, I am working tomorrow. It was busy today and I didn't leave until 5:40...and forgot to clock out...DOH!

I went to the doctor yesterday...a new doctor. I liked her. I won't go into all of the details of my visit but she sent me to the lab to do a lot of blood work. She is doing a thyroid study, did a CBC, CMP, and some other stuff that I am not really familiar with. Just trying to figure out the root of my stomach and back pains. She referred me to the OBGYN (a new one) and a GI doctor (a new one). I LOVED LOVED LOVED my OB/GYN that delivered Rachel but she moved to the JPS system and that is not the ideal place to have a baby so she advised me to find a new doctor. =( I see a new one next Friday...we will see how it goes. I will discuss my fears of future pregnancies with her. I have been reading up on HELLP Syndrome which is what I had with Rachel and from what I am reading it is likely to happen again and happen earlier in the pregnancy...is it guaranteed? What is? But there is a greater chance. I just enjoy life right now and I am not quite sure I am ready for newborn "stuff" again...but I think my apprehension really comes from my fears of another bad pregnancy. New GI doc....I am glad about. It's closer to home and I wasn't just absolutely crazy about my last one....

Played softball last night...was the catcher...got injured.....that's all I gotta say about that...OH, we lost 11-12...bummer!



I haven't been taking many pictures of my kiddo lately...not sure why. We really haven't been anywhere to take good pictures. We will go in the next couple of weeks and get 18 month pictures taken and then hold off until she is 2...if I can! =P Here are some in her 3T clothes!!! Can you believe she can wear 3T!??!! She is starting to slim down a bit though...I noticed today...not a HUGE change, but I can tell!



Thursday, May 8, 2008

WOW....

I am feeling MUCH better today. Yesterday was....well, let's just say an interesting day!!! I don't wish that on my worst enemy!

It's Thursday...the week is just flying by! Of course, since I have had a baby, I feel like my life is flying by. I can't believe she will be 18 months old next week. She's getting so big. We were watching Go Diego Go a few minutes ago and there was a prairie dog that needed help. She looked at me and said, "Dog, help." She is picking up on so many things. I just love her to pieces! (I am sure none of you knew that, right???!!)

So, let's talk potty training...when do you start? I have heard different opinions. I have been reluctant up to this point because I just wasn't ready to fight that battle and I thought Rachel was too young. I have a friend who is potty training her child and she just turned a year old. I bought Rachel a potty chair and she seems to be scared of it. Yesterday, I knew that she had pooped in her diaper and I said, "Rachel, did you poop?" and she said, "Yes" and started running to the changing table to change her diaper. So, does that mean it's time????!!!

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Suggestion....

DON'T EVER TAKE EX-LAX!

This might be a little too much information for some of you, but....it has been a rough day. I think the warning on the box that says "don't take if.....vomiting, nausea, etc..." was written for me!!!

I cannot FOR THE LIFE OF ME understand why ANYONE would take laxatives to lose weight....I was taking it for a little relief and got the COMPLETE OPPOSITE!!!

UGH.....

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Just A Thought...

So, it just dawned on me that yesterday's posts were kinda ironic. The first post I talked about not being able to lose weight and the next post talked about how I lose everything!!! HA HA HA!!! My husband actually pointed out the irony involved in the two posts....such a clever man!!

Monday, May 5, 2008

Frustrated....

Okay, so my earlier post today was titled "Disappointed" and this one is "Frustrated." Life really is good, but I just need to blog about these things today, I guess.....

I LOSE EVERYTHING!!!! I would lose my head if it wasn't attached to my body...seriously...I think I actually have lost my head on occasion. Anyway, I have managed to lose (and I am sure it is with the help of a couple of extra hands and feet) the following: Rachel's FAVORITE Ms. Pattycake DVD, MY FAVORITE bracelet in the whole world, and I am sure that there are many other things that I cannot think of at the moment. My husband gets so frustrated with me because I can never find my shoes. I have recently lost free AA airline ticket voucher, credit card (x2), and I am sure my mind as well!!!!

I need a little more organization in my life. The story behind the bracelet is that I put it with my watch and rings as I do everyday on my bathroom vanity...well, guess who is tall enough to reach it now???? There is no telling where that bracelet is! AHH!!! Nevermind the fact that I have a freestanding jewelry box that takes up space and collects dust....oh I must stop...I am starting to really feel like a loser and MY HEAD HURTS!! I'm gonna go do my Bible study......and take some Advil!

Disappointed....

disappointed

Well, I think I gotta little too excited about my weight loss last week. I only lost .8 lbs this week! ha! I am following the plan exactly but they say an average weight loss of 2 lbs per week is healthy and I have lost 4.6 lbs in two weeks, so....I AM STILL DISAPPOINTED!! I have been working out and playing softball too. I guess there are a lot of things that could factor into the fact that this week wasn't just an incredible weight loss week....maybe next week will be better.

Saturday, May 3, 2008

What We've Been Up To!

Nothing, to tell you the truth and I LOVE IT!!! This week has been pretty uneventful! This is the first week in a long time I haven't worked at least one day and I have to say that I am not complaining. I really thought that I wanted to work full time but I love being home!

We had a play date with Chelsea and Josiah on Thursday. Rachel and Chelsea play so well together. They played in the playroom and outside at the sand and water table and then on the slide. I hope that they grow up to be great friends like their mommies are. I am so blessed to have Krista in my life!


I went to physical therapy on Friday because it seems that giving birth and carrying around my not-so-tiny child has caused some of my discs in my back to slip....AND IT HURTS!!! I have noticed that I cannot stand for more than about 10 minutes at a time without needing to sit down...I can especially tell when I am in a patient's room at work. They are helping me with some exercises...I have to say, I am a little skeptical of whether or not it will help...such a good patient, I know....

Today the 3 of us went to the mall...can I just give you a suggestion that you probably already know....DO NOT GO TO THE MALL ON SATURDAY!!!! It was crazy but the weekend is the only time we can go all together. I needed some clothes that actually fit. I got 3 pairs of pants and 2 shirts from New York and Company...I ABSOLUTEY LOVE THAT STORE!!! If you ever just feel like buying me something, a gift card there would be fabulous! I also needed some new shoes so we went to JCPenney's where everything is on sale all the time...no luck with me finding any shoes, but Brice got some. I will probably visit my local Payless sometime this next week.

Tomorrow is church. I haven't been in awhile because I have worked the last two Sundays. I miss it. I don't like working on Sundays but sometimes it's needed. I love my church family and Rachel has such a fun time learning about Jesus with all of her friends.

Tonight Rachel and I were "rock-rocking" in the chair before I put her to bed and we said our prayers. She folded her chubby little hands and attempted to close her eyes. We thanked God for everyone and then asked Him for a good nights rest and good day tomorrow and said Amen. Rachel said, "AMAN." So sweet. Then I began to tell her about all of the things that God made. When I said, "God made Mommy and Daddy and Rachel" she repeated me so sweetly. Then she kept saying, "AMAN." I just love the innocence of a child. I just pray daily that God can allow me to be the kind of parent that always teaches my child about Him and that she will grow up knowing what's important in life...I missed out on that as a child and it is so important to me to be a godly parent. God teaches me new things everyday about parenting and I am so blessed that He gave me the privilege of being Rachel's Mommy. I just love her!

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Good Report!

We just got back from the ENT doctor. Rachel's ears look great! The audiologist said that she has a little bit of dried blood in the right ear which could be the reason for her pulling at it but that doctor said it looks good. No infection and healing nicely. He DID NOT take out her tonsils. SO.....either I read the operative report wrong or he dictated wrong...either way, I wasn't supposed to read it in the first place and I heard from his mouth that he DID NOT take out her tonsils, so we have them.....for now! No more antiobiotics, etc...he said to just continue giving her Motrin when she acts like she is hurting and give her children's cough and cold stuff for her snotty nose. He said some of that may be due to her adenoids area not being completely healed.

Nothing else new, really. I am continually reminded everyday of things that I can do to improve myself. God is working on my overall character right now...you know, those little things that I do that I don't even realize is wrong....well, he's reminding me of them. That's good! I am thankful for God's discipline. I just wish I didn't have to learn things the hard way.....



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