Sad, for some reason....

Today is just one of those days.....you know, as women, we have them. Nothing bad has happened...to me, anyway. I have a wonderful life. I have a wonderful husband who constantly provides for my family, and the most amazing little girl I could have ever been blessed with. God is and always has been good to me...even in the trials. As I think about the trials I have been through in my life, I find myself thinking that life has been good, in comparison to others. Should I really compare myself to others? I think sometimes, it's healthy.

I was looking at my friend, Krista's blog today and she has a link to one of her friends and I went to her page...you get the picture...anyway, I found a PRECIOUS precious, did I say P-R-E-C-I-O-U-S video. I know very little about this family. All I know is that there is a mom named Angie and she has a husband and 3 beautiful daughters. I know that she just had a baby girl named Audrey Caroline who died shortly after her birth. They knew that this was going to happen before Baby Audrey was born. I am not sure of the specifics concerning her condition, but I do know that she only lived for a short time. I read about it before she was born. You can read more about Audrey and about this family at www.audreycaroline.blogspot.com The following video is of the family before and after Audrey was born. Get the tissues handy....I just sat here and bawled like a.....baby.....I think the most amazing thing is although Angie (and like I said, I don't know her) is struggling and she talks about that in her blog, she is able to give God the glory and the honor that He deserves. I would like to say that I would do that in those same circumstances but I just don't know....I would like to say I am strong in my faith...but just how strong am I? I have been reminded recently of just how precious life is. I have had a VERY close friend lose her Baby Aubrey just a day or so after she was born. I wasn't a very good friend...I didn't know what to say, how to say it or when to say it...so I didn't say anything at all. It was, and still is at times, tough. I want her to know I love her and care but how? I have known several people that have had terrible times with fertility and some that never were able to birth their own children. I have known SO many that have lost babies through miscarriage. After I watched this video I was speechless....she wrote this song and it is beautiful to me.....

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Peas on Earth said…
Rikki, when I first heard and read the stories of all those babies, including Audrey, I was terribly sad, melancholy, introspective for several days. I, too, am so very blessed with healthy children, etc. It is so hard, though, as a mom, to watch other moms go through stuff like that because you can imagine "just enough," you know? It is heartbreaking. I think that is why I am so drawn to Angie's story - the way that she is so transparent - so honest - and at the same time, so beautifully willing to praise the God of all our circumstances, good and, well, not what we would ever choose.

I am so grateful that God does work in all things for our good and that He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. He is never changing, and he is good, all the time. What other thing could sustain us so?

As for your friend who lost her little Aubrey, I am so sorry for her, and your, loss. I would venture to guess that she would love to hear from you, even if it has been a while and you haven't said anything yet. I would guess that just an honest, "I love you and I have grieved with and for you, and wept and prayed so much - I honestly didn't know what to say or do, and so I did nothing. I am sorry. I just want you to know I love you and I am sorry." I know (from experience, unfortunately) how much harder it is to do this the longer it goes. But, follow the leading of the Spirit and if He leads you to contact her, it is the best thing you can do. It will break the ice and bring healing to you both. I will pray for you.

God bless you~
Sharon
April 29, 2008 at 10:27 PM
Hester 5 said…
No, I have talked to her since then. I just found myself having a hard time thinking of what to say and the hardest part about it was that I was pregnant when she lost Aubrey, so I guess a part of me felt guilty. Anyway, when Rachel was born, I didn't know how much to share with her about the birth and life of my daughter. I eventually wrote her a long email and said some things that apparently were not the "right" things. Anyway, we are good now, but I wish that I would have handled it better at the time. What bothered me the most is that I am a social worker and I am supposed to know what to say and do in these circumstances but it is so different when it effects you personally. Thank you for your words of wisdom. =)
April 30, 2008 at 8:49 AM
Peas on Earth said…
Well, I don't think God wants you beating yourself up over it. "Knowing what to say in these situations" as a social worker, and actually saying the right thing when it is something and someone so close to your heart are two very different things. I am glad you did reach out to her and that things are better. Did you read Angie's blog today? "Tilted" at audreycaroline.blogspot.com

Apparently, even Angie is struggling when it is a friend who loses a baby. Let God hold you close and sing his grace over you tonight. :-)
April 30, 2008 at 5:12 PM
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