My Want To Needs a Tune Up
I love to read but I am not a fast reader. A good friend of mine recently let me borrow Beth Moore’s new book Audacious. I do love Beth Moore, and generally, I can pick up one of her books and read it in a fairly short period of time. This book was a little harder for me. I am not sure if it is because the word "audacious" just seems to be a weird word to me or just because it was a difficult book to get into, but whatever the reason, I am almost finished with the book and I love it now!
Last night I was able to read and before I knew it, my clock on my wall was chiming the Beatles’ song "Let It Be" to let me know it was midnight. My eyes were getting a little crossed or I would have sat there and finished the book.
I have also been reading through the Bible daily, something that has always been a struggle for me but, thankfully I found a great blogger that made a schedule for daily Scripture writing/reading and it is keeping me on track. I am hoping that this will get me in a routine, give me a new zeal for reading Scripture, and then I will crave it so much that I cannot leave my house without it in the morning! Today my Scripture was the following:
I have always loved these verses but after reading Beth’s (yes, we are on a first name basis…um, not really but a girl can pretend) book, those verses meant even more to me today. I want to focus on the word “wants.” There are so many things I do out of need but what about my wants. I know that kind of seems backwards because we normally think about things the other way around…we should purchase things we need over things we want but hang with me. I go to church on Sunday morning because I need to hear the message or because my 4-year olds need a Sunday school teacher. I started off reading my Bible each day beginning this year because, as a Christian, it is something I need to do and I need the Word in my life but do I really, truly LONG for and WANT Jesus in my life? Do I want a relationship with Him? You see, Jesus does not need us. He wants us. He longs for a relationship with us.
Jesus wants me.
My prayer is that I will want more of him each and every day. I want to turn from my selfish ways, take up my cross, and follow Him. It is the true desire of my heart. I don’t think I have ever actually thought about this concept until I read it in the late hours of the night last night with just me, the crackling fire, and the words printed on the page of my book...well, and the Beatles I guess. :) It was what I went to bed thinking about last night. Then when I woke up this morning and went to the Word, the Scriptures reminded me of that thing again. Coincidence? I think not.
Lord, line up my desires with your desires. My prayer for 2016 is more of You and less of me.