Thursday, December 11, 2008

Weight Gain!

Why am I up at 2:49 AM blogging about gaining weight? Well, I guess because it is bothering me....right now! Actually, I was woken up by my 2 year old daughter who started screaming for no reason...not that anyone could tell anyway...must have been a bad dream. Brice went to check on her (we have a gate at her door so she can't get out of bed and wander down the flight of stairs in the middle of the night and I cannot step over the gate due to shortness and pregnancy). Anyway, Brice checked on her, said she was completely sideways in her bed and completely asleep while crying. He made it all better like a good daddy would do! Anyway, as a result, I cannot sleep and I left him upstairs in the bed tossing and turning.

Okay, back to weight gain....

Today (well, technically yesterday) I had my 24 week checkup. All was okay. My blood pressure was a little high which TOTALLY freaked me out! With my history from my last pregnancy, that is not what I want to see. Doctor was not concerned....anyway, this 4 weeks.....6 lb weight gain!!!! Doctor still has said nothing. I don't know what I am waiting for. Do I want her to yell at me? Well, she isn't going to but do I want her to say, "Okay, stop eating and stop gaining weight?" Again, not gonna happen! Maybe I just want, "We have gained a little more weight than I would like. Here is what you should eat to keep baby healthy and keep you from looking like a beached whale." The thing is....I know how to eat healthy. I have been overweight my entire life, it seems. I have averaged between 6 and 8 lb weight gain every checkup. That's a lot! The first trimester you are supposed to gain 1 lb, 2nd trimester, 1/2 lb per week, and the last trimester 1 lb per week.

I can rationalize and give all kinds of excuses....here is the real excuse....I have been on a perpetual diet since my last child was born....2 years ago!!! I have done well. I gained about 70 lbs when I was pregnant with Rachel. I lost all of that in about 2 months and over the course of the following year and a half lost about 30 more lbs. It wasn't a strict diet after the inital baby weight was off but I was SO proud of myself prior to getting pregnant this time. So, when I found out I was pregnant it was like a free token to eat what I wanted. You aren't supposed to be on a diet when you're pregnant!!!!! I know, faulty reasonining but I am certain that this is what's got me to where I am. Funny thing is, I am just now to my pre-pregnancy weight when I got pregnant with Rachel. Is that supposed to make me feel better? Well, it doesn't! I was overweight when I got pregnant with her!

The depressing part....I still have 16 weeks left...or a little less! What am I going to do? I laid in bed prior to getting up and getting a glass of water and coming to the computer wondering if I should only eat salad from now until March or if I should go back to the gym and start walking again. The other bad part....IT'S THE HOLIDAYS!!!! I didn't get the luxury (if it really is) of being pregnant with Rachel during the holidays.

Anyway, what does all of the rambling amount to? I don't know. Maybe I am a stressing out a little too much but weight has been an issue for me for most of my life. Maybe I should have talked to the doctor about it yesterday but I guess at the time it didn't seem like such a big deal.....*sighs*

3 comments:

Lainey-Paney said...

in the middle of my pregnancy with Gage, I was put on a "diet".
the deal: my baby was growing fatter, not stronger.
so, I was allowed enough sugar in ONE DAY to sweeten my decaf coffee that was more of a habit than a necessity.
Meals were to be protein focused; and I had to eat all of my protein before moving onto veggies & carbs. starchy things were to be considered a "treat", not a side item.

In the end, I put on 47 pounds with Gage.
I can only imagine how bad it would have been if my dietary intake wasn't restricted for the majority of my pregnancy.

Ben and Bethany said...

I say eat healthy and exercise because it will be best for your baby - not because of any weight factor.

I had a denise austin prego cardio and yogamama dvd that I did and it made me feel better every time I did them.

Try not to be so hard on yourself or focus negative energy that has followed you for so long...that stress is far worse than any weight gain. Stay positive - it'll work itself out :)

Shawn and Kimberly AKA Daddy and Mommy said...

Girl! You have to quit stressing because I am sure that it is not good for your blood pressure. Keep in mind that you were able to lose all of your baby weight plus some with Rachel, so I am sure that you can do it again after this baby is born. Just focus on keeping yourself and baby healthy and keeping your BP down.
If it makes you feel any better, Carter is 16 months old and I am still trying to lose 10 lbs. :(



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