Reason to Rejoice

I have a million other things I could be doing like sleeping but my mind won't let me.  I am going to get this off my mind and then maybe I can rest better.... At a crossroads...ever been there before?  When you think you know what the right answer is and you have it all figured out and then one day, you wonder if you really do?  What causes that self-doubt?  It's hard to tell but I wish I knew if it it was me, or God, or Satan or just plain ole confusion (which would be me).   When I began college, I knew I wanted to do something in the healthcare-related field.  I love medicine.  I love hospitals (not being on the treatment end, but the working end).  I have always wanted to be a nurse for as long as I can remember.  I started out pre-nursing and after a few science classes where I barely squeaked by, I decided that maybe that wasn't for me.  I had very little support from family at that time and I just did not think I could do...

I know many of you have been waiting for this and I am so sorry it has taken me so long to post!!!  This will be the overall post and then I will break it down into "days" for you.   First of all, I hope that it doesn't seem "all over the place" because I don't have the information real organized in my head.  We left for Disney World on Saturday, November 23rd which was the Saturday before Thanksgiving and we were gone for 7 complete days, returning on Saturday, November 30th.  We only took Rachel and Lauren while Hannah stayed with Brice's parents at our house.  We just wanted to enjoy the trip without having a 2 year old and knew that Hannah really wouldn't remember or enjoy it as much as the older two and...we WILL be back again soon anyway! :) So, our strategy is always to leave at a decent time in the morning but not TOO early.  We chose to fly on American this time because we did not have a layover and the flights were actually chea...

If you know anything about me, you know that I am blunt.  I am straight-forward, to the point, and to a fault, honest.  This is something that I have often wanted to change about myself.  Let's face it, there are things about each one of us that we would change, and let me be clear, there are MANY other things I would change but becoming more gentle has always been something I have longed for. I have had people tell me that I should be proud of this.  They wish they could be more assertive like me.  I guess there are good points to this type of characteristic but more times than not, I find myself getting into trouble because of it.   Piggy-backing on that character istic  flaw is the fact that I am a complainer.  I would rather whisper that but again, if you know me, you probably didn't fall in the floor in disbelief that I just typed that.  It is hard to admit.  It is hard to tell a world (okay a few people) that read this that I...

Ya'll, I cannot get this song out of my head, heart, or mind right now.... Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) by Hillsong.  I posted the actual song on my last post but read the words.... Here is the chorus...read the words to the chorus first: And I will call upon Your name And keep my eyes above the waves When oceans rise My soul will rest in Your embrace For I am Yours, and You are mine Think about it..... Waves in the middle of the ocean.  Can you imagine?  Being in the middle of the deepest deep of the ocean with the waves up to your eyeballs and you struggling to keep your eyes above the water?  Do you picture it?  Can you feel it?  Now, think about resting and KNOWING beyond a shadow of a doubt that YOU WILL BE OKAY!  GOD HAS GOT THIS!!!!  He has YOU!  He will NOT let your head go under the wave!!!!   What is your wave??!!  Is it loss?  A child?  A husband?  Health?  Wealth?  A job? ...

When someone that you love and that you know loves you back points something out that you need to "work on" it can do a couple of things…make you humble, make you mad, make you fall in love with him all over again, and bring you to your knees.  The problem  good thing about this "revelation" of sorts is that it is true.  I might share more about this in a later post, but for now, I want to leave you asking for prayer.  Will you pray that this year will bring me closer to the feet of Jesus.  I want to go deeper - even when it hurts.   I will DEFINITELY need prayer as I start a new Bible study this coming Thursday.  It is called Lord, Change My Attitude by James McDonald.  I have heard wonderful things about it and I hope that it will be life changing for me.  I am praying that I go into this study with an open mind, because honestly I don't want to do it!!  I do not want to focus on my attitude but it kinda stinks!!  All the m...